My First Wheelchair

In my last installment I talked about why I am shopping for a new wheelchair. I said I was going to take a look back at other wheelchairs I’ve had over the years.

Chris Young B.W.C. (Before Wheel Chair)

I never was able to walk or even crawl as an infant or toddler. I guess I didn’t toddle at all. In an attempt to crawl if you laid me on my stomach, I could work myself up on my elbows and hold my head up. As I started to write this I was originally going to say that I could never get my knees underneath me into a crawling position. Then I dug up some old home movies that did show me in a crawling position on my elbows and knees. At first I thought perhaps I had been placed in that position but a brief final clip before the film ran out showed me lying on my stomach with my legs stretched out flat and my upper body propped on my elbows. Then I proceeded to scoot my elbows backwards until I was up on my knees. However I don’t think I was ever able to really crawl. My recollection is that once propped up on my elbows I could sort of lunge forward and fall and actually move forward down a couple of inches. I don’t believe I was ever able to push with my legs in a crawling motion. To paraphrase Woody talking to Buzz Lightyear “That’s not crawling… It’s falling gracefully”. The old 8 mm movies did not show me actually crawling. You can see this video on YouTube further down in this blog. The “”not quite crawling” portion is at the very end of the clip. It was taken when I was one and a half years old at Christmas 1956.

Although I couldn’t find a picture of it, at one point they sat me in one of those spider walking things that you put babies in and they push them with their feet. I distinctly remember being in one so they must of put me in one at about age 2 or so. I can’t imagine that I would have a memory of being in it at an age in which you normally put a kid in one of those things. I could sort of rock back and forth and make it move an inch or so and I did push a tiny bit with my feet. However to make those really work, you have to be able to pick up feet to take a second step. I could not lift my legs once I had pushed. If I tried to drag them forward it would probably push me backwards again. I just remember that despite all of the coaching and “come on you can do it Chris” that I never was able to move the gadget more than an inch or two.

They also bought me a tricycle but I remember it was too big for me. My feet would not reach the pedals. I think they put wooden blocks on the pedals at one point but I still didn’t have sufficient strength in my legs to make it work beyond simply rocking back and forth and hoping to nudge it forward. Here is a video I spoke of earlier. It shows me sitting on that tricycle which apparently was a Christmas gift in 1956. Obviously it was too large for me at that age but even as I grew up I was never able to pedal it with my feet.

The video begins with images of me on the day of my baptism. Shows other images of me as a newborn. Then there is a sequence of me sitting in a baby chair playing pattycake I’m about one years old. I do not remember that chair. Then it continues with the Christmas 1956 sequences.

I also found this photo of me in a little red wagon so I suppose theoretically that was my first “wheel” chair. It looks as though the photo may have been the same Christmas as the tricycle so I guess the tricycle and the wagon are tied for the title of “first wheeled vehicle”.

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I don’t have any memory of sitting in the wagon. I remember seeing it stored in the rafters of the garage many years later along with the previously mentioned tricycle. I remember the first time I saw the tricycle in the garage rafters and being surprised at how small it was. I remember it as being huge especially since it was too big for me.

Just about every photo I found of me before age 5 showed some adult holding me and that is my recollection as well. Before I got my first wheelchair I was simply carried everywhere. When not being carried I set in a small chair at the end of the coffee table in the living room. I do have vague memories of the rocking chair shown in the Christmas video. It had a music box and a small plunger on the runner so that when you rock back and forth it would push the plunger and play the music box. I recall that it was a little bit unstable and could tip over backwards if you are not careful. They put a little screw in one of the runners that we keep from rocking backwards too far. I guess that was sort of an early version of a wheelie bar.

After the rocking chair I spent a few years sitting in a cardboard kid’s chair which I distinctly remember. The only decent photo I found of it was this 1958 photo of me in an astronaut costume for Halloween.

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Although I was still at the carrying around age and did not yet have wheelchair, we later tried to come up with creative costumes for me to wear on always that incorporated the wheelchair. Click here to see photos of the various ways we tried to build my wheelchair into Halloween costumes.

The cardboard chair was later replaced by a similar sized chair that was a swivel rocker with white leather or plastic upholstery and black trim. I did find some old photos of me sitting in that chair but they really didn’t show much of the chair so I didn’t bother to scan them. Since I was three years old in the previous photo, I must have gotten the white upholstered chair at about age 4.

I spent all day in those little chairs sitting at the end of the coffee table in the living room playing with toys. We also had a sandbox in the backyard that I would occasionally sit in and play with the sand. However for dinner I set in a high chair at our dining room table for many years. I have lots of memories sitting in that chair. I also distinctly remember having a recurring dream sitting in that chair and having it tip over sideways but I would always wake up before it hit the ground. I guess it’s the typical falling and waking up dreams that everyone has but for me it was always tied to the highchair. Here is a photo of me in the highchair on my fourth birthday. It was taken in our backyard here on Cossell Drive. The photo is looking south and it’s amazing because there are no trees, no big privacy fence, no screened in porch at the Tillery house to the south of us and no garage on our property either. There is a possibility the garage had been built by that time and simply as too far to the left to be seen in the photo. But our garage was not built at the same time as our house. We had it built later probably about this time. And get a load of the three-tier cake! Perhaps that was an indication of the idea that perhaps I wasn’t going to be around for very long.

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The First Wheelchair

Sometime when I was five years old, probably before I started school, my parents purchased my first wheelchair. They encouraged me to try to push it with my arms. If I was on completely smooth ground like our tile floors in our house I could push it forward with my hands on the wheels. I could only move about an inch or so per push. Again it was almost like that “falling gracefully” situation. I would get a grip on the handrails connected to the wheels and then sort of lunge my upper body forward and if I was lucky my hands did not slip their grip. At four or five locations around the rim, there was a screw with a standoff or spacer connecting the hand rim to the wheel. If I could hook my thumb into one of those, I could keep a better grip but of course it only worked for one push out of about 10. I did try pushing on the sidewalk that was my front porch but even the crack in the sidewalk expansion joint was often an obstacle that was difficult to overcome. In the end I wasn’t able to push the chair any significant distance without getting myself exhausted. So I eventually gave up trying altogether.

I found a number of photos of me in that first wheelchair. This one of me fishing off of a dock at Lake Schaefer near Monticello Indiana. It is probably my favorite photo of me from that era. I just look like a having a ton of fun and I remember I was. This was before we owned the property on Cordry Lake which we didn’t get until 1965. We had friends who owned a home on Lake Schaefer and we spent a week vacation there in what was probably the summer of 1961 or 1962. I recently asked my dad did we go there twice or just once? He seemed to think it might’ve been twice.

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Here is another favorite photo from our trip to Lake Schaefer. It shows me driving a pontoon boat. I could actually drive it. It took every bit of my strength to turn the wheel but I could actually steer it. When we got the place on Cordry Lake and dad built our first pontoon boat there, I immediately wanted to try to drive it and for a few years was able to. Fortunately you only needed to turn the wheel slightly to keep it on course. It wasn’t like I tried to park it in the boat dock or do anything fancy. But I have very fond memories of the day that picture was taken and the times that I drove our boat on Cordry. I believe I was only able to move the wheel on the boat by pounding on the handles with my fist but that was enough to steer it.

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1st_chair_Lake_Schaefer_yardAmong the more memorable features of that first wheelchair was that it had very hard plastic armrests. They were not padded as were the armrests on every other wheelchair I ever owned or saw in my entire life. The armrests were an ugly dark green with some sort of marbling texture to them which looked like green marble stone. I believe that the upholstery was also dark green. It can be seen in this color photo also from Lake Schaefer. You can click any of these photos for larger versions.

I also found some other interesting photos of me in that first wheelchair. Here are three photos from my first ever trip to the Indianapolis Motor Speedway. We sat outside the front stretch. These photos are looking south towards the first turn and you can see the scoring pylon in the distance of the first one. There were wooden folding chairs in that section of the stands. I was lightweight enough that dad could just balance my chair on the rear wheels and pull me up the steps to sit there after removing one of the chairs. I would guess this was 1961 but one of the photos says 1962 although I cannot tell if that was written on the photo at the time or if it was something that my mom added to the photo when she put them all in albums about 10 years ago.

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I’ve tried to research what year it was based on the most memorable part of the day. It was a qualification day because I remembered that at one point they announced there were no cars ready to attempt a qualification and that the track was available for open practice. I remember asking questions about what was the difference between qualification and practice. At some point everyone jumped up and looked towards the first turn. The PA announcer, probably the famous Tom Carnegie, reported “Race driver Norm Hall had hit the wall in the first turn.” As you might expect from a five or six-year-old I thought it was funny that it rhymed. So I began repeating it over and over in a singsong voice “Norm Hall hit the wall! Norm Hall hit the wall!” Eventually dad tried to explain to me it wasn’t anything to sing about.

I remember from there we went through the tunnel at gate seven to the infield and we were walking along the pavement behind the main grandstand just behind the control tower which in those days was not a pagoda. I was worried we would get run over by race cars. I had thought we were on the backstretch. Dad tried to explain to me that the backstretch was way far away. But I had seen people on the top of the infield grandstands looking over the edge as the cars went down the backstretch. He explained that from that high up you could see the backstretch but they were not looking straight down behind the grandstands as I had thought.

Here is a photo of us outside the fence of Gasoline Alley. You can see some bodywork from a car sitting there. Although the photo doesn’t show it, I remember seeing parts of a race car that had crashed. I don’t know if it’s true or not, but I concluded that it must’ve been the car in which Norm Hall had notoriously musically hit the wall. I then really understood that hitting the wall at the Indianapolis Motor Speedway Was not something for which a happy song was appropriate.

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I attended practice and qualifying many, many times over the years but did not attend the race until 1993. I recount the story of my first attendance at an actual race in an article I wrote for Indianapolis Monthly Magazine. >Click here to read that article titled “A Race Fan’s First 500”.

This photo is probably the earliest one that I could find of me in my wheelchair. It is from Christmas 1960. It was taken at my Grandma Young’s house on Indian Lake Road. That’s my uncle Keith with the glasses, my dad, my mom, Grandma Young, and Susie the cat. If you look closely you will see I’m holding a book of riddles. There is a long story associated with that book that you can read in my faith blog here.

The Brace

In addition to getting a wheelchair at age 5, I also got my first back brace about that time. I can tell by looking at the Lake Schaefer fishing photo that I’m wearing the brace because you can see the upper edge of it pushing out my shirt. Here is the story behind the brace.

When I was first “diagnosed” and I put that in quotes because they really didn’t have a diagnosis for me, they said that I had Amytonia Congenita. That is Latin for congenital low muscle tone. Congenital basically means “since birth”. I always said it was as if they brought this kid into the doctor and said “What’s wrong with my son? He’s got weak muscles ever since he was born.” The doctors said “Oh yes… We have a name for that. It’s Amytonia Congenita”. To which they would ask “What does that mean?” And the reply was “It a Latin phrase meaning he’s had weak muscles since birth.” To which the reply is “no shit!” It’s not so much the diagnosis of a disease as it was a description of my symptoms.

Anyway this so-called diagnosis was made at a muscular dystrophy clinic at Riley Children’s Hospital. I was seen there by an orthopedic doctor named Dr. Carl Martz. The clinic was a mess. You would go about every two or three months. Everyone had the same appointment time which was generally about 8:30 AM and then you would sit there for hours and wait your turn while possibly 20 other kids would go in ahead of you. They didn’t even bother to schedule the appointments at 15 minute intervals.

You would be seen by a bunch of interns and residents who didn’t know what they were doing. They would try to evaluate you and then report to the attending physician who you would see for about 30 seconds. We eventually gave up on them because the whole thing was just a joke. We started seeing Dr. Martz directly in his office. He was a nice enough guy and probably knowledgeable as could be expected for the late 50s/early 60s but he really never did anything for me except put me in the brace.

The brace was actually a corset. It was made out of a heavy woven material and had metal stays in it. Most of the stays were somewhat flexible but in the back there were two very heavy metal bands that were supposed to hold my spine straight. We would purchase the corset not from a medical brace shop where all of my other handicap classmates purchased their leg braces. We got it from a woman’s corset shop called Spencer’s Corsets Shoppe. The woman who fitted me for the corset was named Mona Nevitt and she looked like a cliché image of a seamstress. She had cat’s-eye eyeglasses that hung around her neck on a chain along with a tape measure draped around her neck. She had painted on eyebrows and a big 60s hairdo. I did a Google search for Spencer’s Corsets and found this page showing images of women’s corsets from 1962.

Thankfully none of the images on that page look like what I wore but if you look at the one at the very bottom of the page on the lower left, the buckles on that corset were identical to the one that I wore.

When Dr. Martz retired, I did not sign up with another orthopedic doctor. In retrospect it was probably a mistake as my spine continued to get more and more curved. I should’ve had spinal fusion surgery sometime when I was a teenager. Most kids with Spinal Muscular Atrophy (which is my correct diagnosis) do get spinal fusion. It wasn’t until I developed congestive heart failure in my early 20s and I had to quit work that I went to a different doctor. I started seeing an internal medicine doctor named Dr. Daniel Boyd. He realized that the corset was restricting my breathing and he sent me to an orthopedic doctor who got me the current brace that I wear now. It’s basically a plastic body cast that runs from my chest/armpits all the way down to my waist.

Speaking of medical equipment that needs to be replaced, the same plastic race I’ve been wearing for nearly 40 years. We tried getting a replacement once but it fit me so poorly, I refuse to wear it. I leaned over once wearing it and it gave me the worst pain I’ve ever had in my life. And that’s even compared to the time my intestines ruptured and I needed emergency surgery. I screamed in pain “Get this damn thing off of me!” and I never wore it again. That was maybe 15 years ago. The original old original plastic brace that I continue to wear has cracks that have been patched. The Velcro straps and buckles have been replaced many times as has the foam inner-lining. It’s basically a timebomb which could fall apart any day but I’m not going to bother to replace it.

Final Thoughts

Anyway back to the wheelchairs. Here is one final photo of me in the first wheelchair. Thus my cousin Nancy sitting on my lap. She was born with spina bifida and uses a wheelchair herself. She did walk briefly with braces and crutches but it ended up she is more mobile in the wheelchair then she was with the braces. I don’t know when she switched to wheelchairs. I guess that’s her story to tell. This photo was dated November 22, 1962.

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One other thing looking back over all these photos. Apparently I only had one good shirt. Either that or I had several similar striped shirts that were perhaps different colors that can’t be seen in the black-and-white photos. I take that back… I had at least 2 shirts. The white shirt and the bowtie from the Christmas photo also appeared in some other photos of me on the day of my First Communion. The First Communion story is one very different blog later.

In the next installment I will show you some photos of how we modified that first chair and some wheelchairs that I used when I first went to school.

Why I’m Shopping for a New Wheelchair

A number of big milestones are coming in my life. The biggest one is on July 12, 2015 I will celebrate my 60th birthday. I’ve asked my sister Carol to organize a big party because I want to acknowledge what a big milestone it is since I was not expected to live very long when I was a child. I want to celebrate how wrong I was and everyone else was when we thought I didn’t have many years left to me. However while celebrating the fact that I was wrong for so many years thinking that I didn’t have much time left, the reality is that my disability has gotten progressively worse even though it has progressed much more slowly than we thought that it might.It was a different milestone in my early 20s when I had to quit work because my disability was worse. It was a milestone when I could no longer type on a computer keyboard using my hands. It was a milestone when I had to adapt my wheelchair controls and start using a stick in my mouth to steady my hand on the joystick. I’m faced with another of those milestones in that I can no longer reliably use my current wheelchair controls. Therefore I’ve started shopping for a new wheelchair.

Such big milestones can be emotional times for me and the way I deal with those emotions is to reflect, look back on my history, and try to put things in context. So I thought I would chronicle my history of wheelchairs that I’ve owned. I’ve dug through old photo albums looking for pictures of me in my earlier wheelchairs. In the upcoming installments of my blog, I’m going to document what I found and explain how my wheelchair needs have evolved over the years.

Before we do that, let’s take a look at my current problems with this wheelchair and why it’s finally time to upgrade. I got my current wheelchair in December 1986 and many people are surprised that my chair has lasted this long. I’m not really that surprised because I don’t really put as many miles on the wheelchair as I did when I was younger. The main reason it’s time to upgrade is that is becoming more and more difficult for me to operate this chair is my disability gradually gets worse.

From the time I got my first power chair in 1965 when I was in fifth grade up until the early 1980s, I simply grabbed the control knob or joystick with my hand and pushed. But at some point my arm became too weak and unsteady. I was already using a wooden stick or dowel rod in my right hand to poke at the keys of my computer keyboard. I discovered that if I turn the stick around and put one end of it in my mouth, hold the other end in my right hand and also hold the joystick in my right hand, then I can steady that hand and drive my wheelchair. In effect my mouth moves the stick. The stick moves my right hand. My right hand moves the joystick and that moves the chair.

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Me In My Driving Position.

Above is a photo of the position I need to be in, in order to drive my chair. In order to get a good grip on the stick, I need my first and second fingers on top of the stick and my thumb needs to be underneath the stick. Also the first finger needs to be crossed over the second finger. More and more frequent that I need to have brought me up in that position. It’s not easy for him either. It takes him two hands to do it. One to hold my arm steady and the other one to hook up the fingers. Because his balance is a little bit unsteady he has to lean against the wheelchair to keep his balance while putting me in place.

Below is a brief YouTube video showing what I have to do to get into that position on my own. In order to get two fingers on top of the stick I have to start out with my entire hand over the stick. Then I have to figure a way to get the thumb tucked underneath. If my thumbnail is even a tiny bit long, sometimes he gets hung up on the stick and I can’t get my thumb into place. As you look at the video notice that the stick actually curves near my mouth because I’m putting so much strain on it. When the stick gets old, sometimes it feels like it’s about to break.

One recent innovation is that we put a piece of heat shrink tubing over the end of the stick so that when I hold it in my mouth it doesn’t get so soggy and chewed up. That way I don’t get splinters in my mouth and the stick should theoretically last longer. I’ve been chewing on that damn stick for over a decade and now just a few weeks before I’m going to end up quitting using it altogether, I figure out how to cover it up. Oh well.

One of the problems is that for many years I’ve not been able to reliably hold my head in position. I have to get it balanced just right and if I hit a bump or if I’m on uneven ground my head slips and hopefully I can let go of my stick and joystick and not go flying across the room. It is to the point where unless I’m on completely smooth and level ground, I just don’t drive myself. And I’ve not down to been able to drive my chair with any kind of coat, jacket, sweater or whatever because of the limits on my arm.

There are many alternative ways to drive a power wheelchair. The classic one that has been used by quadriplegics and other severely disabled people is known as the “sip-and-puff”. It’s a small plastic tube that you put in your mouth and you either slip or puff air and then out of the tube. It is so sensitive that you don’t really need to breathe into it. People who are on ventilators and pass no air in and out of their mouth use it all the time. Just the amount of air in your cheeks is sufficient to activate it.

There are four different “commands” that you can use with a sip-and-puff device. A soft sip, a hard sip, a soft puff, and a hard puff. Using different combinations of those signals you can drive a power wheelchair and do a variety of other things. An initial hard puff will enable the wheelchair to move forward, while a hard sip will stop the wheelchair. Conversely, an initial hard sip commands the wheelchair to move backward, while a hard puff will stop the wheelchair. A continuous soft sip or soft puff commands the wheelchair to move left or right respectively depending on how long the user blows into the tube”.

The problem with driving a chair that way is that you do not have proportional control. Using the joystick if you want to go slowly you only push the stick a little bit. To go faster push it further. Similarly pushing it at any angle adjust the relative speed of the left and right drive wheels so that you can turn at any radius. Using a non-proportional system can only turn the left and right motor off or on and forwards or backwards but cannot adjust the speed and cannot adjust the angle at which you are turning. The motion tends to be very jerky and is difficult to control especially in tight spaces. My very first power chair at a joystick knob but did not have proportional control. They are no fun once you’ve used a good proportional system.

So I’ve always been hesitant to switch to a different control system even though in some ways it would give me a little more freedom. I would have to strap my head into a headrest to keep it in a steady position so that I could always get the tube in my mouth. But I would be able to drive with a coat on. Drive over rough ground. Drive up and down reasonably sized ramps. It would actually make me much more independent.

My fear is that once I stopped using my right arm to control my wheelchair, it would atrophy like my left arm has done and would become completely useless. I use that right arm for other things. For many years I also used that arm and the stick to type on a keyboard like this.

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This 2000 photo shows me using a stick to type on a keyboard of my computer. I had been doing this since the early 1980s.

I would pop the keyboard up on an easel and poke at the keys. The date on that photo was May 2000 but it could be even older than that. I use a similar system all the way back to the early 1980s all the way back to the 8-bit days of CP/M. More on that another time.

For the past seven or eight years, I’ve used nothing but dictation software Dragon Naturally Speaking. However I still use my right hand and the stick to use my iPod touch and more recently my new android phone. I will do a complete blog article soon about how that works but here’s a quick photo.

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Using my mouth stick to operate my new android phone. The special tip on the stick is made of conductive foam and is grounded so that the capacitive touch works.

I hold the stick in my mouth. A special tip with a thin red ground when pressed to the capacitive touchscreen on the phone activates it just like using your finger. A wooden stick by itself doesn’t work with capacitive touch. Although the ground wire is fastened to the aluminum bracket holding the phone, I also hold the wire in my hand which steadies the stick.

I never really thought about it before but when driving, my mouth stick steadies my hand. But when using the phone, my hands steadies the mouth stick. I also use the mouth stick to poke at the buttons on the TV remote although I don’t need my hand to steady the stick for that purpose.

The bottom line is that I’ve always feared that switching to an alternative control like a sip and puff even though it would make me more mobile, it would be the end of using my hands altogether and I would lose much more.

Even though my current wheelchair runs reasonably well, it should’ve been replaced a long time ago. There’s something wrong with the electronics that it leaks current even when shut off. That means the batteries will not hold a charge. I should be able to run around the neighborhood all day on a single charge. Since I only run around the house I should be able to go several days between charges but I cannot go more than one day without plugging it in.

I’ve always said that I hated to replace this chair and get one with a similar joystick when I knew that sometime soon I was going to need an alternative control system. I’m guessing for 15 or 20 years now I’ve been saying “Any day now I’m not going to be able to use that joystick anymore. I’m going to wait until then to get a new chair.”

I’ve especially had problems whenever I’ve been in the hospital or been in bed sick for many days. The first few days getting back in the wheelchair have been especially difficult. Generally it’s because the hospital pumped me full of IV fluid in my hand gets severely swollen and unusable. Fortunately each of those times I’ve bounced back.

Recently I’ve been having problems driving even without any other medical issues causing them. There been many days when I’ve not been able to get my hand into position to drive the chair. I especially have problems early in the day right after I get up. Even with my hand in position it’s hard to drive down the hall from my bedroom to the kitchen to eat lunch right after I get out of bed. Also late in the day when I’m very tired it’s been difficult to get my hand into position or even once it’s there to be able to drive. I’ve not driven outdoors even across smooth sidewalks or parking lots for many years. Friends and family either pushed me or they drive my chair by walking alongside and pushing the joystick.

At first you tell yourself “Well I’m just having a bad day.” The next day I prop that hand up into position and drive all over the place with ease. And then the next day I think “I may never be able to drive again.”

The straw that finally broke the proverbial camel’s back was at the Easter vigil service this year at St. Gabriel. It is a three hour long liturgy in which the people I’ve been teaching in RCIA class are finally baptized, confirmed, and received First Communion and are brought into the church as full members. Three hours is a long time for me to sit in one position and so last year I had asked one of the ushers named Ray Brooking to check in on me a couple of times throughout the service to make sure I was okay. I speculated that maybe my arm would slip or perhaps I would need help with something to get me comfortable. I did that again this year but I should have added one more request.

When it came time for the baptisms, everyone had to turn around and look at the back of the church where the baptismal fountain is. When that time came, I couldn’t get my hand into position to turn around and watch the baptisms. Fortunately none of the people in my RCIA class were being baptized. The baptisms were mostly kids or people from the Hispanic RCIA. The people from my class had already been baptized in some other Christian denomination and were merely making a profession of faith and receiving confirmation and First Eucharist. All of that took place at the front of the church where I could see it.

The usher did check in on me and I was okay but I should have planned ahead and said to him “If you don’t see me turn around for the baptisms, come and get me.” At the end of mass he pushed me out into the lobby and helped me call my dad. It was after 11 PM and I had been sitting still for over three hours during the service. I normally go to bed about 9:30 PM so it was no wonder I couldn’t drive.

Two weeks ago I met with a young man named Patrick Phillips from National Seating and Mobility. We talked about my needs and he’s recommended a new wheelchair. He has obtained the demo version of the wheelchair but he’s waiting to get some demo equipment for alternative controls.

Six wheeled captain’s chair style that I don’t like.

I guess I’m kind of old and set in my ways when it comes to wheelchairs. Many of the newer chairs have six wheels and the drive wheels are small and the center wheels on each side. One of the advantages to this older style is that it’s relatively easy to get the chair up and down a single step like a curb or a step into someone’s house. Not sure that you can do that with the newer six wheeled chairs. The seats on the newer chairs also look like a bucket seat out of a car or sort of like a captain’s chair. I don’t like that. I like the traditional wheelchair. Unfortunately those are getting harder to come by. The company that made my existing chair nearly 30 years ago is in trouble with the government and no longer sells wheelchairs. Apparently they were buying cheap parts from China. Then when they would break down they would take the broken parts and put them back on the shelf and try to sell them to the next unsuspecting customer.

Mr. Phillips did find an “old-fashioned rearwheel drive” wheelchair from Sunrise Medical. Here’s a photo of the one I will probably get. It is a Quickie S-6 Series from Sunrise Medical linked here.

The Quickie S-6 chair I’m considering.

If I get this model, it will not be camouflage colored like the photo. They make a color called “candy blue” but I like to think of it as “TARDIS blue” instead. It does however have 6 wheels however the two rear wheels are just sort of a wheelie bar to keep the chair from tipping over. It is still considered a “rear-wheel drive”.

Among my other health problems that are going to influence what I need in a new chair, my sinus problems and my weak lungs occasionally give me nasty coughing spells. The only way I can get beyond them is to lie down in bed. In fact I’m scared of going places where I wouldn’t have the capability of laying down in an emergency. Anytime I go somewhere I only go if I’m sure my lungs are in good shape. And I generally load up on Sudafed and Robitussin just to make sure I’m going to be okay.

One of the features available for these new chairs is to tilt back seat on about a 50 degree angle or alternatively to recline completely flat. Of course these advanced seats cost more money and are heavier. I’ve not made a final decision yet but I think we may need to have a reclining seat. I think that might be a feature that would potentially save my life so it’s probably going to be pretty important.

One of the first things Mr. Phillips said when I told him that I wanted some sort of alternative controls and that “worst-case scenario we do sip and puff”. He said that he very rarely uses sip and puff controls for his patients anymore. It is indeed a last alternative. I asked him if there was some sort of joystick I could use with my mouth and he said yes indeed. He showed me a video of himself driving a chair with a tiny joystick that is feather touch. He was operating it just using his lips and not moving his head or neck at all.

Here’s a video demonstrating the joystick although in this video is being used as a game controller and being reviewed for its ability to control video games. But I’m 99% sure it’s the same one that Mr. Phillips was showing me him demonstrate himself.

Here is another similar joystick actually being used to drive a wheelchair from Sunrise Medical

Here is another finger touch joystick that I found online that we might investigate. Although was demonstrated here mounted on a plate (which I don’t think I could use), the company that makes that joystick also has a way for you to hold little square piece in your hand. It even has a little plastic ring so you can wear it around your finger. If the other joystick doesn’t work we may try this.

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Anyway now I’m just in a waiting mode waiting for the guy together up samples of all of these alternative controls. He said that he might need to contact the distributor and have them send a representative to meet with us to demonstrate the stuff. That may take some time.

The remaining articles in this series could be an adapted version of an old Willie Nelson song. We would title it “To all the wheelchairs I’ve loved before.” We’re going to look back at some old photos of me in various wheelchairs using different controls. That’s all for now.

Paul McCartney in Concert: Part IX “Epilogue”

The Journey Home

I don’t really recall everything that Judy and I talked about on the way out. We were both sort of emotionally exhausted but still on a big high. Even though we waited a little bit for the crowd to thin we still had to fight a pretty big crowd to get all the way around the arena to the other side were the elevators were. I decided we should not call my dad until we got downstairs because we didn’t want to be on the phone with him if it was our turn to get on the elevator. As it turned out of the three elevator lines, ours was naturally the slowest moving one. I already told you about the conversation with the woman from Cleveland who had gotten emotional over “Paperback Writer”. Judy asked where they were staying while they were in Indianapolis. The woman said they were staying with friends from Jeffersonville which is almost as far south from here as Cleveland would be north. I was happy we didn’t have that far to go. It was after 11:30 PM.

We got downstairs and reunited with Anne. We called my dad and went down the ramp and out the door To wait for him outside. I knew that Judy and Anne both needed cigarettes. We just talked about the show in and talked about taking pictures and about the people that sat next to her. At the very end of the show they had fired off a pair of confetti cannons and the clouds of confetti drifted towards where Anne had been sitting. I had said to Judy “I hope she saves us some confetti”. Great minds must think alike because indeed she did. I will end up taping the confetti pieces into my program as a keepsake along with my ticket stub. Judy made sure she had taken her ticket stub as a remembrance as well.

Confetti and ticket stub memorabilia.

Confetti and ticket stub memorabilia.

I was in bed by about midnight but I didn’t get to sleep until about 2:30 AM.

The Days That Followed

The next day I started working on making a mix CD of all of the songs we had heard that night. Some of them I already had on CD. A couple of them I bought on iTunes. The remaining songs were acquired by a method not altogether dissimilar from the one in which I had first acquired Beatles music (wink wink nudge nudge say no more). A Google search provided me with the set list from the concert. Apparently the McCartney press office had released a set list in the concert had followed it except that it originally was supposed to contain “Get Back” instead of “I Saw Her Standing There“. I like “Get Back” okay but I was glad the other one was substituted. I later found another set list with links to some of the songs on YouTube and it helped me identify Beatles versus Wings versus just plain Paul songs.

It took two CDs to hold the entire collection of songs from the concert. I had asked Anne if she preferred live versions or studio versions of the songs where available. She said “studio” and I agreed. I like them best so that’s what I did. She came over that evening and brought her camera so I could download the photos. I was overjoyed to see how wonderful they all were.

I took a break from my Beatles adventure on Tuesday and then on Wednesday through Friday I worked on writing this blog. It took me from lunchtime to suppertime all three days to complete it. Then it took me all afternoon Saturday and Sunday to edit it, upload it, and attach the images. As you can imagine, writing it was an emotional experience as well. However as I said in the beginning when I have big experiences in my life, they aren’t complete until I’ve written about them.

I originally started doing the Wikipedia searches just so that I could link the song and album names in this blog onto something but along the way I learned a lot about the songs, how they were written, and the context in which they were written. I did not know for example that “Abbey Road” was actually the last album they recorded even though “Let It Be” was released after “Abbey Road”. I did not know about the role that the “Long and Winding Road” had played in the breakup of the Beatles.

Although Wikipedia is not always the most reliable sources for encyclopedic information, my guess is that Beatles fans would not allow an accurate information to stay on the site for more than a few minutes. Even if it isn’t 100% accurate but still is some interesting reading and I encourage you to click on a few of the links.

harrisonWhile preparing this blog I also stopped by Amazon.com and ordered DVDs of “The Love We Make” which was the documentary about the post-9/11 concert that McCartney did. Also “George Harrison: Living in the Material World” which was the Harrison documentary I mentioned. And while I was at it I ordered the Billy Joel documentary “Last Play at Shea” and a Blu-ray of the concert film “Billy Joel: Live at Shea Stadium

Me in my Paul McCartney T-shirt. Photo taken with my new Nikon S3500 point-and-shoot camera.

Me in my Paul McCartney T-shirt. Photo taken with my new Nikon S3500 point-and-shoot camera.

Then in early August I made one more purchase. I wasn’t going to have a camera that you stupid AA batteries that you had to take out and charged by themselves. For a long time I had wanted a new camera that was chargeable by USB. My friend Stu recently bought a new Nikon point-and-shoot that was really nice so I went out and bought one for myself. It has a 7x optical zoom, shoots 720p video in addition to stills, and the extremely thin considering resume. On sale at Best Buy for under $100 and I couldn’t resist. Here is a photo of me in my Paul McCartney T-shirt taken with the new 20 megapixels camera. Note I downsized the picture to lower resolution for uploading a blog. You don’t want to see my age spots and scruffy beard at 20 megapixel resolution trust me 🙂

Overall it’s been an amazing experience and one that I’m certain I will never forget. Sharing it only with Judy and Anne just wasn’t enough. I had to put it down in my blog and share with everyone. I hope you’ve enjoyed our own little Magical Mystery Tour. I like mine better than the original.

Paul McCartney in Concert: Part VIII “Encore Encore”

After that last Beatles song, I was really surprised when the band again came downstage and waved and bowed. He still hadn’t sung “Yesterday”. The summer before last, Judy and I went to Deer Creek to see Elton John and we were surprised at how many people left during the encore. He still had not done “Your Song”. I realize it was a cold and rainy night and that traffic would be hell leaving the place but why would you spend all of that money and sit through the entire concert and not wait to hear him sing “Your Song”. Judy and I are also the kind of people who never leave a sporting event until it’s completely over no matter how big the score is one way or the other. If you’re going to pay the money to see the event by God you ought to stay for the whole thing!

Judy noticed that the couple who had been standing in the row 1 seats behind us were about to leave after the first encore. She said to the woman “You do know he’s coming back to sing ‘Yesterday’ don’t you?” The woman replied “Oh yeah that would be worth staying for.” And they stayed. As I looked around the arena I didn’t see very many people leaving. This second break was much longer than the first one. We were not going to let him end the show without “Yesterday”.

When he eventually returned, he picked up an acoustic guitar, walked to the center of the stage, and our wishes were fulfilled.

What We Came for

Yesterday” 1965 Beatles album “Help!“.

I cried.

“Yesterday, All my troubles seemed so far away…” Photo by Anne Chapman

I could just leave the review at that but after having detailed the emotions and feelings and history behind so many other songs, I really need to talk a tiny bit this one. I was 10 years old when the song first came out. I liked the song just like everyone did. It was once voted the best song of the 20th century and you will get no disagreement from me there. But it really didn’t mean that much to me until three years later when I got my heart broken by my first love Rosie Shewman. I must have sung that song to myself and cried myself to sleep for hundreds of nights. Of all of the “soundtrack-of-my-life” songs in the world this is the “soundtrack-of-my-life-iest” of them all.

Wallet photo of my first love Rosie Ellen Shewman

Wallet photo of my first love in junior high Rose Ellen Shewman

Although she broke my heart, we did end up becoming very good friends throughout high school. In my high school yearbook she wrote “You mean more to me as a friend than you will ever know “. I realized at that moment that the reverse was also true. She meant more to me as a friend than I had ever realized. That taught me a lesson which has served me well throughout many relationships. No matter how much you are attracted to a woman romantically, if the romance isn’t meant to be, don’t discount the powerful blessings that come from a deeply felt lifelong friendship. The chief beneficiary of that lesson was sitting next to me as I cried through the song that night at Bankers Life Fieldhouse.

Wallet photo of my good friend from high school Rosie Shewman

Wallet photo of my good friend from high school Rosie Shewman

I still miss Rosie every day. I carry these two photos of her in my wallet. The last I saw her was at the Roberts School reunion in 1986 which was chronicled in my award-winning magazine article “The Reunion“. She got married and had a baby. She passed away October 29, 1993 of complications of disability.

I won’t ever see Rosie again. I won’t ever hear John Lennon or George Harrison sing live in concert. And soon this wonderful experience of hearing Paul McCartney sing these wonderful songs would be over and would be just a memory like Rosie and Lennon and Harrison and all of the other events of my life that I had relived over the past couple of hours.

So I cried.

"… I believe in yesterday". Photo by Anne Chapman

“… I believe in yesterday”. Photo by Anne Chapman

Mood Breaker

Helter Skelter” 1968 Beatles album “The Beatles (White Album)“. Once McCartney had finished Yesterday I expected him to take another bow and walk off the stage for the last time. I was really surprised when he declared “Do you want here’s a more rock ‘n roll?”. Naturally most everyone screamed “YES!”. I was too spent to say anything. What came next was an assault on the senses both audibly and visually that was completely unpleasant in my opinion. McCartney had said in an interview that they wrote the song to be the loudest, raunchiest rock ‘n roll song ever written.

I had actually never heard the song before. I had never owned the White Album and it was at a period in their history where I really wasn’t that big of a Beatles fan anymore. Some of their music from “Magical Mystery Tour“, “The White Album” and “Yellow Submarine” was just too bizarre for me. I didn’t really get interested in the Beatles again until “Abbey Road” which followed.  Given the connection of this song to the Charles Manson gang and the book and film about him of the same name, I never felt inspired to go back and listen to the song after I heard about it and the Manson connection. All I can think of that night was I was glad I wasn’t on drugs and I was a little bit pissed off that he would follow such a wonderful song was such a horrible one.

Before the final songs started, McCartney gave a big shout out thank you not only to his band but to all of the other stage technicians, audio, video people and even the truck drivers who made the show possible. I thought it was great that he gave the roadies a shout out.

And in the End…

Golden Slumbers“, “Carry That Weight“, “The End” 1969 Beatles album “Abbey Road“. McCartney returned to the grand piano and begin gently playing Golden Slumbers. I had run out of tears by that point and the mood had been broken by the previous song however I did get a little bit emotional over this medley of songs which have long been favorites of mine. They are three out of four final songs of Abbey Road which is one of my favorite Beatles albums. Thinking about Golden Slumbers I felt a sense of peace that John and George and Rosie and all of my other friends who succumbed to their handicaps were now sleeping Golden Slumbers. The rock ‘n roll bridge in Carry That Weight is so much a part of the medley and I enjoyed so much that I didn’t mind it as an interruption.” The entire lyric of the final song it was a fitting conclusion to this entire adventure. “And in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make.”

To be concluded…

Paul McCartney in Concert: Part VII “Encore”

Photo by Anne Chapman

Photo by Anne Chapman

After the big “Hey Jude” sing-along, the entire band came out and took a big bow and waved and walked off the stage. Of course that didn’t stop the crowd from cheering for several minutes and with “Yesterday” still unsung he had to come back. This was the first time since the beginning of the show over two hours prior that McCartney left the stage at all. It wasn’t too long before they all returned. As they came on stage they were waving large flags. They had American, British, and state of Indiana flags that they waved to thunderous applause. Finally after handing off the he picked up a guitar and the show continued.
Photo by Anne Chapman

Photo by Anne Chapman


Day Tripper” 1965 Beatles single on compilation album “1962-1966 (The Red Album)“. Okay we are back in Beatles mode yet again. I didn’t cry with this one but it definitely transported me back to a place and time in the 60s. I always loved the double entendres of this song. Also had a particular question about one of the lyrics (“she’s a big teaser”) and after reading the Wikipedia article, I see that the lyric was changed from a raunchier one. That means we got the message even if they did change the lyric 🙂

Photo by Anne Chatman

Photo by Anne Chatman

Hi, Hi, Hi” 1972 Wings single. This is a heavy rock ‘n roll song is a great one for an encore performance when everybody is all fired up. They did a rousing version. Check the Wikipedia link to see how the BBC banned this song from the airwaves.

I Saw Her Standing There” 1963 Beatles album “Please Please Me“. Now we’re all the way back to the beginning. This was the first track on the first Beatles album and a longtime favorite of everyone including me. It had McCartney’s signature screams of “Wooooo…”. Again I didn’t cry for this one but it didn’t transport me to another time and place yet again.

I recently enjoyed watching a special on PBS where McCartney was given The George Gershwin Award for songwriting at a special ceremony at the White House. A variety of artists were invited to come in and perform various McCartney songs in tribute to him as he was given the award. But they also invited comedian Jerry Seinfeld to come in and do a few jokes. Apparently McCartney is a big fan of Seinfeld. He started off by saying how much he loved McCartney’s work but he wondered if some of the lyrics were just a little bit suggestive. Quoting from the song Seinfeld said “‘She was just 17 if you know what I mean.’ No Sir Paul… Just exactly what do you mean? This all sounds a little creepy to me!” I about laughed my ass off when I heard the joke originally and I couldn’t help but giggling throughout the whole song thinking about what Seinfeld had said.

At some point during one of the encores (I cannot exactly determine when) Anne turned her camera towards the balcony and took the photo below. When she first brought me the photos I skipped through them rather quickly and when I saw she had taken a photo of the audience I just thought it was an ordinary crowd photo. I didn’t notice it right there in the middle of it was me in my yellow shirt and Judy sitting to my right in her blue and white stripes caught in mid clap.

Judy and I in the balcony. Photo by Anne Chapman

Judy and I in the balcony. Photo by Anne Chapman


After “I Saw Her Standing There“, the band took another set of bows and walked off stage again.
To be continued…

Paul McCartney in Concert: Part VI “Sing Along with the Finale”

After the emotional tribute to George Harrison it was great to have some fun songs to raise the movie again. It was time to build up for a grand finale and we were not disappointed.

Let’s Have Some Fun

Photo by Anne Chapman

Photo by Anne Chapman

Ob-La-Di, Ob-La-Da” 1968 Beatles album “The Beatles (White Album)“. This is a fun little Beatles song which was a big audience participation song. People chimed in on the refrain “La la la life goes on…”. I really needed something upbeat after that previous song.

Band on the Run” 1973 Wings album “Band on the Run“. This is one of my favorite Wings songs and they did a really great version of it. Again another big upbeat song to get me over the Harrison thing. It’s one of a number of Wings songs that changes tempo in the middle. It starts out as a soft ballad in and goes into hard rock. I really enjoyed it. Especially the synthesizer solo.

Back in the USSR“1968 Beatles album “The Beatles (White Album)“. Always liked this hard rock song even though it was a bit difficult to like a song about the USSR at the height of the Cold War. I always thought it was strange that they wrote the song having never been to the USSR. Check out the Wikipedia article about how it was written as a parody of the Beach Boys and their influence and input into it.

After the song he went over and sat down at the grand piano at the back of the stage again and begin talking about the time they did get to go to Russia and played the song. They were the first rock band ever to be invited to play in Red Square. He said they were introduced to all sorts of Russian officials such as the defense minister and other high ups in the Soviet government. He said they tried to be as polite as possible not wanting to set off some international incident and wondering just how welcome they would really be there. He said the defense minister came up to him and said “The first record I ever bought was ‘Love Me Do'”. McCartney did a pretty good fake Russian accent as he told the story. He went on to say that some of them told him they learned English by listening to Beatles records. One of them came up to him, shook his hand and said “Hello Goodbye”. I thought it was a really good joke. I don’t care if it really happened or not. Because he had returned to the grand piano I knew that one of my much awaited songs was not far off. I was not disappointed when the next song was…

Let It Be” 1970s Beatles album “Let It Be“. When I said at the beginning that I had braced myself for emotional moments in a Paul McCartney concert wherein he would likely sing lots of Beatles songs, I was a little bit concerned this might be a tough one for me. It’s probably fourth or fifth on my favorite Beatles songs but the more I got to thinking about it prior to the concert I realized it wasn’t really a tear jerk kind of song for me. I just really really liked it.

I suppose the most emotional part about the song for me was that we used to sing it in my high school choir and that I had the sheet music for it and learned to play the opening piano introduction on our Hammond organ in my house. Back in the days when I had better use of my hands (hell any use of my hands) I liked to play the organ. Most of the time I played a one note melody with my right hand occasionally hitting a two note chord. There were only two exceptions to this limitation. One was a Christmas hymn “What Child Is This?” in which I could play pretty good melody with the right hand (one note at a time) and a base note with the left hand. However “Let It Be” was my masterpiece. I played it with both hands and at certain points actually played two note chords with each hand! I worried a little bit that the fact that I might get nostalgic and upset over my loss of ability to do this would make the song a tough listen for me. As it turned out I just set back and enjoyed hearing one of my favorite songs being beautifully performed live.

One other note… Part of my love of the song was it talks about “Mother Mary”. Being brought up a good Catholic boy I naturally presumed that it was talking about Mary the Mother of God. The fact that the piano gives way to a church organ part of the way through the song probably reinforced that idea. It wasn’t until about a year ago that a friend of mine ruined it for me (thanks Megan) by telling me that Paul’s mother was named Mary and that the song was about her. Megan believed it was a double meaning but my research since then says it was all about mother McCartney. I still like the song a whole lot and it was wonderful to hear it in person.

It’s also a little bit sad that it was one of their last big hits on their last studio album before the breakup. Actually by the time it was mixed and released the breakup was complete. That always makes it a little bittersweet for me.

Live and Let Die” title song from the 1973 James Bond film “Live and Let Die“. I remember when I first heard that Paul McCartney was going to do a James Bond theme. I thought it was really cool that they would hire a rock star for such a role. Pop stars had performed Bond themes in the past most memorably Shirley Bassey performance of “Goldfinger“. But I didn’t recall a rock star writing and performing such a song. However it set a precedent that continues through the most recent Bond theme when Adele wrote and performed “Skyfall” and won an Oscar for it. “Live and Let Die” was nominated for best song Oscar but lost to “The Way We Were“. The Beatles did win Best Score Oscar for the documentary “Let It Be

I had seen McCartney perform this song for the Queen’s Jubilee and it included lots of pyrotechnics and fireworks. It was really spectacular so I was hoping we would get a good show for this one and I was not at all disappointed. There were four very loud fireball cannons that went off in the front of the stage. There were also Roman candles shooting fireworks balls into the air at various angles. Along the back of the stage there was a row of about 10 or so smaller fire cannons shooting small orange propane fireballs into the air.

bond3I noticed that one of the rear cannons wasn’t shooting fireballs that was shooting a continuous orange flame about 6 feet tall. The flame continued to burn after the other devices had quit shooting. It had me a tiny bit worried we were going to see some disaster if the thing got out of hand. The flame gradually died down and ended as if someone had slowly cranked closed a valve. Near the end of the song when the rear fireballs resumed, that particular one did not do anything. I thought it was kind of cool that the stagehands had a way to selectively shut that one down and did so.
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As wonderful as these photographs are from my friend Anne, I’m a little bit disappointed she didn’t get a wide shot of the whole stage showing some of this pyrotechnic stuff. But I can’t really complain considering how awesome the rest of her photos are. And you can see some of the fireballs in these images. The song ended with a loud explosion and McCartney walked away from the piano holding his hands over his ears shaking his head and laughing. The whole thing was every bit as spectacular as a James Bond song performance should be.
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Hey Jude” 1970 Beatles album “Hey Jude“. Judy had been saying since well before the constant that she couldn’t wait to hear McCartney sing to her directly “Hey Jude”. I told her “You know it was actually written for Julian Lennon don’t you?” She said “Yeah I heard that they are wrong. It’s all about me.” With the song started she let out a big cheer.

This is always a big audience participation song for the much repeated coda at the end. The audience didn’t need much encouragement to sing along. The band quieted down and just kept a beat for the audience to sing to. He went through the usual live concert routine “Everybody on this side.” And then “Everybody on that side”. And now just the guys. And now just the gals. And now EVERYBODY! It’s a cheesy trick but it’s a lot of fun and I screamed out the words just like everybody. I was kind of surprised how clearly you can tell the difference between the men and women singing. There was clearly a deeper tone. Lots of times when they say “just the guys” the guys don’t chip in and sing very much but this time they did. Everybody likes singing along to the song and it was a lot of fun.

So it wasn’t just McCartney singing to Judy. It was about 18,000 people in Bankers Life Fieldhouse.

The band all stepped forward with McCartney, took a bow, and walked off stage to thunderous applause.

Paul McCartney in Concert: Part V “Songs From Silly to Serious”

I’ve said it many times so far and I will say it again, my good friend Anne Chapman took some wonderful photos that I’m pleased to share with you. I teased her after the concert saying “Now you did write down which song he was singing during each photo didn’t you?” Of course there was no way to enjoy the show and keep such notes. There are a couple of piano songs coming up that were played on an upright piano. The image of that piano is not from this section of the concert. It was brought back out for another song during the second encore and that’s where the image is from. Also he began one song on ukulele. Unfortunately she did not get a photo of the ukulele. In this section I can’t guarantee that these photos matchup with the songs. So just enjoy the photos and the descriptions even if they don’t line up perfectly.

This piano was used on "Your Mother Should Know", "Lady Madonna", and "Golden Slumbers". Photo by Anne Chapman.

This piano was used on “Your Mother Should Know”, “Lady Madonna”, and “Golden Slumbers”. Photo by Anne Chapman.

A Psychedelic Piano

Your Mother Should Know” 1967 Beatles album “Magical Mystery Tour“. They rolled out an upright piano with a 60s psychedelic paint job on it and the band returned to the stage. I never saw the 1967 TV special “Magical Mystery Tour” and never really cared for many of the songs in this period. It was all just a little bit to psychedelic and weird for me. I don’t think I have ever heard this song before. During the song, Judy turned to me and said “That piano sounds like ‘ Lady Madonna’style piano”. She was right because the next song was…

Lady Madonna“1968 Beatles single. Judy was ecstatic that she had called it correctly. She said she still had the 45 record at home and when it was new she played it constantly. It’s one of her favorites. I always thought it was a pretty good Beatles song. During the song the screen behind the stage projected images of famous women from Mother Teresa to Marilyn Monroe to Judy Garland holding an infant Liza Minnelli and countless others.

This was one of those songs I was surprised to learn was only a single and was not put on an album until years later when it first appeared on the 1970 compilation album “Hey Jude“.

Photo by Anne Chapman

Photo by Anne Chapman

All Together Now” 1969 Beatles album “Yellow Submarine“. Back on guitar again this silly little song was actually written for a TV special in the UK. Click on the links for details. It was supposed to be a frivolous little sing-along children song and that’s exactly what it is. Although there was some audience participation moments in the concert ironically this sing-along song was not one of them.

Songs with Names in Them

Photo by Anne Chapman

Photo by Anne Chapman

Lovely Rita” 1967 Beatles album “Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Club Band“. This was another of the songs that McCartney said they had not done on tour before. Judy and Anne had never heard it before however they were not big fans of the Sgt. Peppers album. Neither had they seen the cheesy 1978 film “Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Club Band” starring Peter Frampton and the Bee Gees among others. Both the album and the bad film are guilty pleasures of mine. There are lots of goofy little character songs on the album and I had thought this one was in the movie as well but my research says it wasn’t. It’s about a meter maid with whom the author of the song is madly in love. I always thought that this song, “Mr. Kite” (coming later) and the other silly songs were a lot of fun. My favorite from the album and the movie but was not played in the concert was “Maxwell’s Silver Hammer“. I especially love Steve Martin’s version of it in the film.

Photo by Anne Chapman

Photo by Anne Chapman

Mrs. Vanderbilt” 1973 Wings album “Band on the Run“. This was an audience participation song. We practiced and then chimed in on the “oh, hey ho” refrain. I had never heard the song before. It looks as though we’re putting together a theme section of the concert with songs that are the names of people. So naturally the next song had to be…

Eleanor Rigby” 1966 Beatles album “Revolver“. This was one of the songs that Anne was especially looking forward to hearing. So Judy and I immediately turned to one another and said “Well, Anne is happy now”. I guess because at times I’m one of those lonely people I always really liked this song. Those of you who know the Enneagram Personality Typology know that I am a type 5 and I always thought that Eleanor and Fr. McKenzie mentioned in the song might be type 5 as well. The idea that the padre was “writing the words to a sermon that no one would hear” reminded me very much of Maria Beesing’s parable about the type 5 person in the ivory tower writing everything down but never sharing it.

Reproduction of poster which inspired "Mr. Kite" song.

Reproduction of poster which inspired “Mr. Kite” song.

Being for the Benefit of Mr. Kite!” 1967 Beatles album “Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Club Band“. This is another one of my favorite silly songs from Sgt. Pepper both the album and the movie. I saw a documentary one time with Sir George Martin produced many of the Beatles records. He explained the inspiration for this strange song was a poster that John Lennon had found in an antique shop. A reproduction of the poster is shown here and you can get all the details in the Wikipedia article by clicking on the title of the song. I like this live rendition and it had a really cool laser light show with it that gave at the circus feel of the original song. This was the last of the “never before performed live” songs of the evening.

Crying Spell Number Two

Something” 1969 Beatles album “Abbey Road“. McCartney walked to the side of the stage and picked up a ukulele. He said that this was a gift from George (George who? snicker) who loved to play ukulele. He said that George was a big fan of British comedian and singer George Formby who was famous for playing ukulele as well. He said one day he and George (Harrison not Formby) were sitting around together on a sofa and started playing one of George’s songs both of them on ukuleles. He then began playing and singing “Something in the way she moves…”. He sang at least an entire verse and a chorus or perhaps more all alone just strumming on that little ukulele. It was mesmerizing sitting there watching him play and thinking about the two of them sitting around strumming of these little instruments in an impromptu jam session. When the song got around to the electric guitar solo, the band joined in and from there out they sing the entire song in a fully produced version reminiscent of the original.

This was the second time in the evening that I broke down and cried. I’ve already mentioned that I had recently watched the documentary about Harrison titled “George Harrison: Living in the Material World“. That documentary was also emotional for me because it taught me all sorts of things about Harrison and I never knew and made me realize how underappreciated he had been by everyone during his lifetime. As the song went on I began thinking that I would never hear George Harrison perform live because he died of cancer in 2001. So I thought to myself this is the closest I’m going to get to hearing him live. To hear one of his closest friends sing his greatest song in tribute to him.

Paul McCartney in Concert: Part IV “Memories Both Fond and Sad”

At this point I think my emotions have pretty much settled down and I’m just sitting back and enjoying the show.

Back to the Guitar

Photo by Anne Chapman

Photo by Anne Chapman

I Just Seen a Face” 1965 Beatles album “Rubber Soul“. McCartney moved back to guitar after playing several piano songs. This is a fairly obscure old Beatles song. I think I’ve heard it somewhere but it’s not a favorite by any means. My research says in the UK had originally appeared on the “Help!” but it and one other song were excluded from the US version of that album.

Another Day” 1971 McCartney single. This was his first single released as a solo artist. Sort of like “Maybe I’m Amazed” I think it got overplayed so much that I got tired of it.

My Roots As a Bootlegger

And I Love Her” 1964 album and movie “A Hard Day’s Night“. Okay it’s time to get emotional again. This is my second or third most favorite Beatles song of all time with “Yesterday” holding the number one spot and this one in a close tie with “You’ve Got to Hide Your Love Away” from the album and movie “Help!“. I was back in the Beatles concert again and although I don’t think I cried during this one it did get me pretty emotional.

peabodyOkay Mr. Peabody set the Way Back Machine for 1964. The location is the Lafayette Road drive-in theater and I’m sitting in the back of our Corvair van in my wheelchair with a tray across my arm rests. Sitting on that tray is a small 3 inch reel-to-reel tape recorder. (Note this was before cassette tapes became widely used.) The microphone is propped up on the window of the van right next to the horribly low quality drive-in movie speaker that is hanging in our window. I’m watching the film “A Hard Days Night” with my mom and dad. Every time one of the songs comes on I quickly hit the record button on the tape recorder. The people who sneak video cameras into theaters these days to bootleg movies thought they were on the cutting edge of bootleg technology. All the way back in the 60s I was bootlegging the soundtracks of this film, “Help!” and “Mary Poppins

This song was performed in the movie during a sound check for the TV show in which the Beatles were going to appear. It really ticked me off that there is a brief interruption of the song by one of the TV technicians saying something during the sound check. Back then before even seeing the movie I had heard the song and really liked it and was disappointed that it had been ruined in the film and not presented in a pristine version.

The version I heard that night in the concert was absolutely wonderful. I also liked that the video camera got a close-up of one of the band members playing the percussion of clicking wooden sticks together which is one of the signature parts of the original arrangement. The other signature part of that song is a four note guitar rift that is absolutely beautiful. In the 2011 documentary “George Harrison: Living in the Material World” which I had recently seen, Paul McCartney said that even though many of the Beatles songs were listed as written by “Lennon-McCartney” it was George read written that brilliant four note rift that McCartney himself thought made the song special and so do I.

At some point during the concert and I really can’t remember when, he announced that he was going to play songs that had never been heard live in Indiana. He said in some cases the songs were being played on tour for the first time this tour. Judy and I both figured it was some newly recorded song but in each case it was an old Beatles song. I don’t recall if this was one of those that he said it never been performed on tour or not. However according to Wikipedia it says that this song was only performed live twice by the Beatles. That means it was probably was one that he first said had never been done “in Indiana”. You can click on the song title in this section and read the details. I do recall a couple of other ones that he categorized this way and I will mention them later.

Photo by Anne Chapman

Photo by Anne Chapman

Blackbird” 1968 Beatles album “The Beatles (White Album)“. I hadn’t noticed but most of the band except for the percussion had left the stage during the previous song and for this song, McCartney walked downstage to a smaller stage in front of the regular stage. This beautiful little acoustic guitar ballad is a big favorite Beatles fans and probably top 10 on my list. Anne told me afterwards that the guy who was sitting next to her had gotten pretty choked up during the song. A friend of Judy’s had told her that at one point during the concert the last time they saw him he had played a segment of the concert on his own with no other accompaniment so we were certainly expecting this and pleasantly surprised he was doing it again. As he sang that front section of the stage started to rise up about 15 or 20 feet in the air. I sort of felt sorry for the people in the front row who probably couldn’t see him for the first time the concert. I’ve always enjoyed acoustic solos in big loud concerts. There’s just something piercing about the sound of an acoustic guitar in a huge arena or outdoor amphitheater like Deer Creek. I mentioned I’m a fan of the group Yes and they always do one or two acoustic songs this way.

Photo by Anne Chapman

Photo by Anne Chapman

Here Today” 1982 McCartney album “Tug of War“. This very touching song was dedicated to “my friend John” who is no longer with us. It was written after his death and was in the form of a conversation they never had. As he introduced the song I wondered if there were young people in the audience saying to themselves “John? John who? I wonder who he is talking about.” I guess I was just feeling old. My guess is 99.99999% of the people there that night knew who “John” was. I had heard him perform the song before I don’t recall when on TV. Judy and Anne had never heard the song before. When I saw it before and that night in concert it was obvious that he chokes up a little bit trying to sing it.

It was a little bit emotional for me not that I felt the loss of John Lennon all that much. I love his music but personally I didn’t really care for him. I like that he was all for peace and love and all of that but I always thought that this signature piece “Imagine” was a little too atheistic for my taste and can even be construed as communist. I don’t mean communist as in Soviet or Chinese dictator style communism. But at more pure type of communism in which people share everything equally. I think John Lennon was so introverted and withdrawn that at times he came off as aloof and inaccessible. Paul and Ringo have such big personalities that you can’t help but like them. George also seems quite withdrawn and inaccessible but not in an arrogant kind of way. So to the extent that you can have a least favorite Beatle out of session unbelievably talented group of people, John was always my least favorite.

I did get emotional however because it told me that there were things left unsaid between Paul and John and I felt sad for him because of that. I had experience that at a young age when many of my friends in high school succumbed to their disabilities at an early age. I learned the lesson the hard way not to leave things unresolved with someone when you never know if you’re going to see them again. This is especially true for apologies.

Photo by Anne Chapman

Photo by Anne Chapman


To be continued…

Paul McCartney in Concert: Part III “Some Unfamiliar Songs”

After the very emotional memories brought back by the last Beatles song it was a welcome relief to just get some ordinary songs. Some of them I had never heard. Some Judy had never heard but I had. One was a much different version than I had ever heard and my research after the concert explained why.

For the Wings Fans

Listen to What the Man Said” 1975 Wings album “Venus and Mars“. If he had sung another emotional Beatles song at this point it probably wouldn’t kill me. Fortunately he shifted to a upbeat tune from Wings that wasn’t at all mushy. It was just a nice little rock song that gave me a chance to catch my breath. I’m not sure if it was before or after the song that he stepped to the side of the stage and took off the black jacket. He announced “This is the one and only costume change of the evening.” He also picks up a different guitar. This one a lead guitar painted in psychedelic 60s colors and paint scheme. I’m not sure if the costume and guitar change was before or after the song but it was about now.

Photo by Anne Chapman

Photo by Anne Chapman


Let Me Roll It” 1974 Wings album “Band on the Run“. I’m not sure I had ever heard this song before. It features a big electric guitar riff that repeats throughout the song. They did an extended version it was the electric guitar portion sort of merged into a bit of Jimi Hendrix’s song “Foxy Lady”. After the song he explained that it was in tribute to Hendrix who he said was a fan of the Beatles. He told of a time that they released an album (I forget which one) and two days after the release, Hendrix has learned one of the songs and incorporated it into his own shows.

Naughty Nurses

psychedelicguitar2Paperback Writer” 1966 Beatles single. This is a silly little song about an author whose life’s ambition is to write paperback novels. I mentioned that there were video screens on either side of the stage. They were tall narrow screens that projected live video of part standing on stage. However the center background of the stage was also a giant video display that mostly showed still images but some video that related somehow to the song. On this song it showed the cover images from cheap paperback novels mostly about naughty nurses and the like. In fact most of it was nurses in old-fashioned white nurses uniforms and white surgical masks on. Many of them were covered in blood. I recall it as one of those songs that was a hit song but nobody ever really bothered to pay attention to what the lyrics were about. They didn’t carry it was a Beatles song and it had a great beat and so it was popular. Judy and Anne neither one had ever heard it. As we were waiting on the elevator after the concert we talked to a couple of women in their 60s who had come all the way from Cleveland to see this concert. They had on Beatles T-shirts they had bought on eBay. As we were talking about which parts of the concert they like the most one of them said they got emotional over Paperback Writer. I don’t know what happened in her life in 1966 that connected her to that song. It seemed like a silly song to get emotional about. Oh well. I guess her life at a different kind of soundtrack than mine even though it was Beatles 🙂

I will flash forward in the story for a moment here to say that the day after the concert I went searching for all of the songs that we had heard that night. I had to research many of them on Wikipedia to try to figure out when they were written and what album they were from. I was quite surprised to learn that many of the songs were released only as singles. I was thought that the typical route for music was that a man would release an album first, release one or two songs as singles, and if they were hits continued to release other singles from the same album. But this song as were many others by both The Beatles and Wings were first released only as singles and sometimes B-sides a singles but we’re not put on albums until years later when they would throw together a retrospective or a collection of previously non-album singles. This particular song did not appear on the album until the 1970 album “Hey Jude” which was just a collection of such singles.

On the Piano

Photo by Anne Chapman

Photo by Anne Chapman

My Valentine” 2012 McCartney album “Kisses on the Bottom“. At this point McCartney moved to a grand piano elevated on the right rear of the stage. This is a recent song which he wrote for his current wife. The album is a collection of him singing mostly cover songs of classic pop and jazz songs such as Irving Berlin‘s 1925 “Always” and Johnny Mercer‘s 1944 “Ac-Cent-Tchu-Ate the Positive“. He explained that he wrote it for his current wife while they were on a vacation that was marked by lots of rain. During the performance on the center video screen was a video of a man and a woman performing the song in American Sign Language. McCartney plays piano and it includes an acoustic guitar solo that is great. It was really beautiful both the song and the signing performance. I had heard the song on one of his recent television performances perhaps the Hurricane Sandy concert? I forget. It really fits in well with the other old standards on that album. Neither Judy nor Anne had ever heard it but they liked it a lot.

Nineteen Hundred and Eighty-Five” 1973 Wings album “Band on the Run” The year 1985 is mentioned once in the song that I never really knew why you would name also song that when it was mostly a love song. It’s got some great piano riffs and a big rock ‘n roll beat. On the original album it is in a big crescendo with a full orchestra among other instruments. For the live version the keyboard player using a synthesizer had to provide all the horn section and other orchestral sounds. There’s also some pretty good guitar riffs in it. Not my favorite Wings song but a pretty good one. Judy took the opportunity of a nonemotional ordinary Wings song to make a quick trip out to the restroom.

The Long and Winding Road” 1970 Beatles album “Let It Be“. This was a much different version of the song that I recalled. It was very simple stripped-down piano and acoustic guitar version. It’s a sad ballad that I always really liked. The original version always seemed a little bit overproduced to me with a big orchestra that seem to over dramatize the song. I was disappointed that Judy wasn’t going to get to hear it because she was still in the restroom. When she got back I told her she had missed “The Long and Winding Road” and she said she hadn’t. The restroom was right outside our door and she could hear it just fine. In fact we even sounded better with the volume down and not so much echoing around and sort of muffled sound you get when your ears are overloaded.

Photo by Anne Chapman

Photo by Anne Chapman


It wasn’t until I looked up the Wikipedia article on this song that I learned there was a lot of history I didn’t know about the song. According to Wikipedia it was the last straw so to speak that broke up the Beatles. After they had recorded the original version, producer Phil Spector brought in the orchestra and tried to overdub it with the orchestra. When McCartney heard the overproduced orchestral version he wrote a nasty letter to management at Apple records insisting that the song be remixed. His request went unanswered. There are more details in the Wikipedia article that you really ought to read. In 2003 the remaining living Beatles and Yoko Ono released an album titled “Let It Be… Naked” which was a remixed version of the entire “Let It Be” album. The one we heard at the concert that night was more like the “naked” version and I loved it.

Maybe I’m Amazed” 1970 album “McCartney“. This was probably the most famous of his early post-Beatles songs. It’s dedicated to his wife Linda who helped him get through the breakup of the band. I think when the song was originally released he got overplayed so much I got tired of it and it never really appealed to me after that. I did like the piano playing in the original and at the concert but it’s not one of my favorites.
To be continued…

Paul McCartney in Concert: Part II “Traveling in Time”

The Overture

In my previous post I chronicled the events leading up to my attendance at the Paul McCartney concert at Bankers Life Fieldhouse on July 14. When we last left our intrepid concertgoers, the lights had dimmed, images begin being projected on video screens. I declared “The concert had begun!”

But it hadn’t.

The images that went scrolling by on the screens started out with images from what appeared to be McCartney’s childhood. The music included McCartney and/or The Beatles and/or other people singing Beatles songs throughout history. You could see it progressing from the past up to the present. However at the rate it was going it soon became obvious this was going to be an extremely long introduction. Each song seem to play out in its entirety where it would’ve been better just to have a few 30 second clips from each song and fewer images. It showed The Beatles back in Liverpool. It showed them coming to America. It showed their hairstyles changing throughout the years. It finally got into the post-Beatles era and included more songs from Wings and other solo songs. Some of them the original songs and some were cover songs by other artists which were pretty interesting. But this overture dragged on and on. Judy looks at her watch a couple of times but I don’t think she looked right as it finally completed. My guess is it was about 25 minutes long which was way way too long. The crowd was pretty polite through most of it but they did start clapping and chanting when it finally became apparent it was almost over. It concluded with the Wings song “Silly Love Songs”. Judy kept saying “that would be a good time for him to come out and start singing that song.”

The images finally shifted to an image of a starry sky. The stars rearranged into the image of McCartney’s famous violin shaped left-handed bass guitar. The lights finally dimmed completely and he and the band came on stage to thunderous screams and applause.

He was dressed in a long black coat over a white shirt and tie and had on black pants. (Actually it just looked like a narrow 60s style necktie. As the photo shows it was just a black stripe on his shirt.) He was carrying the famous bass guitar that I just described. The band consisted of two other guitar players, a keyboard player and a drummer.

Photo by Anne Chapman

Photo by Anne Chapman


You can click on all of the concert photos that Anne took to see larger versions.

Song by Song

What follows below is my impression of each song that he sung, the effect that the song had on me and a little bit of my own history regarding that song. Fortunately I was able to find a set list online the following day which helps refresh my memory of what was played and tells me a little bit about the songs that I didn’t know. The links on each song title and album title take you to Wikipedia articles.

8 Days a Week” 1964 album “Beatles for Sale” This seemed a strange choice for an opening song. I like the fact that it was an early Beatles song and I always thought the title and concept was kind of good for a love song. The idea that seven days a week wasn’t enough to show how much you cared for someone. The backbeat of the song seems to be a little bit country and western in its flavor. I’ve noted that it’s a favorite of country singers on American Idol when it comes to Beatles Week. I guess since I’m not a country music fan it’s not been one of my favorites. But I really didn’t have much time to think about the song itself because it was just so bizarre to think I was really had a concert with Paul McCartney. I sort of flashback to hearing comedian Dana Carvey talk about the first time he met Paul McCartney. His speech turned into something like a little kid and he reached out and touched him and said “You’re a Beatle. I touched a Beatle”. That is exactly how I felt just being there.

Here is a YouTube excerpt from Dana Carvey’s HBO special that shows the routine that I’m referring to. If an illegal copy so this link might end up being broken in the future.

Junior’s Farm” 1974 Wings song. What was this? Another country song? If I wasn’t pretty sure that they were playing almost the same set list throughout the tour I might’ve thought they were stereotyping Indiana as a bunch of hillbilly farmers and trying to win us over with some country songs. This one was recorded in Nashville while the band Wings was staying on someone’s farm. I think I had perhaps heard it one other time but it was hardly among their greatest hits. I was just settling back and enjoying the show, still a little bit awestruck about where I was.

Tell Me Why You Cried

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Photo by Anne Chapman

All My Loving” 1963 Beatles album “With the Beatles” Holy Shit! I completely lost control of myself in tears just begin pouring down my cheeks. The song has no introduction. It just starts out with Paul’s local “Close my eyes and I’ll kiss you. Tomorrow I’ll miss you.” It was like someone had thrown me into a TARDIS time machine and transported me out of the arena. It was no longer July 14, 2013. I was no longer at a Paul McCartney concert. It was 1964 and I was at a fucking Beatles concert! It wasn’t that screaming 12-year-old girl in the front row of a Beatles concert kind of crying. I was still 58 years old and it had finally hit me that I was at a concert with the greatest song writer of my lifetime. He was singing a 50-year-old song that was just as meaningful today as it was the day he wrote it. Somehow it wrapped up in the little package all of the wonderful feelings I had ever felt about any Beatles song ever written and all the emotional things that had ever gone on in my life that were somehow connected with Beatles music.

I was surprised by how emotional I had gotten over the song. I had prepared myself for a Paul McCartney concert. I prepared myself the to be moved and to enjoy “Let It Be”. I figured I would cry on “Yesterday” for reasons I will explain later. What I had not prepared myself was for the emotion of being at what felt like an actual Beatles concert. It didn’t matter that there was only one Beatle on stage. I was at a concert that I never thought I would have the opportunity to attend. It really freaked me out.

People tend to throw around the phrase “The Soundtrack of My Life” much too easily these days. I’ve been a fan of Elton John ever since I first heard “Your Song” and it was great to see him in concert two years ago. I love Billy Joel. I saw him in concert back in my college days and still love his music. The 70s rock group “Yes” is among my favorites of all time. I’ve seen them in concert several times as recently as two years ago. My love of keyboard music stems from my love of Keith Emerson of the group Emerson, Lake, and Palmer who were my favorite band in the 70s. The greatest concert I had ever seen was their “Works” tour which came to Market Square Arena and featured accompaniment by a full symphonic orchestra. I’ve seen Sting (with and without The Police) in concert several times and I own all of his albums and love his music. I’ve seen productions of Andrew Lloyd Webber‘s “Phantom of the Opera” and “Jesus Christ Superstar” (the latter of which I could sing by heart at the drop of a hat.) I’ve been to see stage productions of “Les Miserables” three times and saw the recent movie of the musical. Despite my love for all of this music, none of it deserves the title of “The Soundtrack of My Life”. That title is reserved for the music written by the man who stood on the stage across from me and sang a 50-year-old rock ‘n roll love song.

The old violin shaped bass guitar and the long black coat that looked like The Beatles and the fact that even though his face is much wrinkled it is still that same smiling baby face we all saw on the Ed Sullivan show 50 years ago… It all merged together to transport me into a different time and place and filled me with emotions I’m only marginally able to describe here.

When the song was over Judy turned to look at me and I said to her “Is this for real? Are we really, really here? I’m crying my eyes out.” She started laughing a nervous laugh and said that she had been crying as well. She said she couldn’t stand up and cheer or do anything during the song. She just had to lean back and cry. She had said repeatedly before and after the show “I’ve been waiting 50 years for this.” And it meant a lot to both of us that we both had broken down in the same way on the same song at the same time. We both understood what it meant to each other and it meant more to both of us because we were there was someone who understood.

If I had gone with my sister Carol or my sister Karen or just with Anne alone or anyone else I would’ve enjoyed the concert just as much. But I would not have had that moment where Judy and I looked at each other with tears in our eyes and we understood that we had each shared something special.

Photo by Anne Chapman

Photo by Anne Chapman


To be continued…